Writing letters...

Because Ezekiel is away in Navy basic training, our only way of communicating to one another is the old fashioned way... writing letters. It's been kind of strange because I am so used to sending bbm and getting one back in a matter of seconds. He has been gone for almost two weeks. The worst two weeks of my life!!! Okay... little dramatic? Not going to lie, it has been harder than I ever expected. I realize how much I really do love him. Absence makes the heart grow fonder? I find this to be very true. I see that I have taken having Ezekiel a phone call away, down the street, an instant message for granted. I really am going to appreciate the time we have together when I finally get to see him! 


I find that writing to him is very therapeutic. I write him a letter every day. I just got his address this week so my first envelope I mailed out to him had about 10 letters stuffed into it! Lol. Sitting down, writing a letter, and walking over to the mail drop everyday... How cute is that? Haha. They only send letters once a week over there so I haven't received a letter yet. My anxiety has been through the roof, like my body is rejecting the fact that he is away from me! I try to be strong, swallowing my tears back but building everything up has been keeping me from a good night's sleep so I've been having a few breakdowns. It feels good to just let it out. I really hope that I will feel some relief when I get my first letter from him. I believe I will.


Before going to the gym today, I went to print out a picture to send to him along with my letter tonight. I hope he likes it. Here it is ...

I know my hair looks crazy! I took this picture just a few minutes after I woke up. Oh and that handsome little guy is the teddy bear he sent me for Valentine's Day. Along with roses, chocolates and spa treatments. He sent them a week early since he would be gone on Valentine's Day :) 

I found this near the middle of my notebook... I had no idea he had done that! He's the best <3